Thursday, November 19, 2009

It's not me, it's you.

When I sat down today and turned on my computer, waiting for the page to load, I thought to myself I need to write something...but what? Then lo and behold, there it was. Once the homepage loaded I saw it there on the screen. Headlines about, not the stripper at Big Al's with big'uns! The hurricane that devastated New Orleans and continues to wreak havoc after the fact. It has been ruled that the damage done because of the storm was compounded by the lack of giving a schit by The Army Corp of Engineers, which ostensibly is the US government. This will now cost us more money because of all the subsequent lawsuits that will follow. Ain't this a bitch! Dubya is still screwing us and he's been out of office for almost a full year now. WTF! Is there no end to the ripple effect of what the eight years this man had to ruin the country will do to us?
That's not even the real issue I'm discussing even though it goes hand in hand.
In 1932 in Macon County Alabama almost 400 hundred black men were used in an experiment to witness and study the effects of syphilis on the human body. None of these men were actually told that they had the disease, nor were they given treatment. How does this tie in you ask? Well then I ask you how doesn't it tie in? Let's look at a few simple ideas, shall we? The first being this, is it far fetc...err...outside the realm of possibility to believe that the aforementioned lack of giving a schit was more purposeful? The majority of the residents in the areas most affected by Katrina were and are black folks, poor black folks, who we already know hold no favor with the GOP (the good ol' party, be wary of this anytime you see it) OR the Bush family, as clearly stated by Herbert's wife, who can only be described as an old worn out battle axe, during the whole horrible ordeal. Her comments were both insensitive and indicative.
And if you're asking of what, then I have to ask...what're ya, new?

All these years later, much like the hole that still sits at the site of the WTC instead of two majestic buildings, Katrina remains a scar on the face of our great nation. And as we as a nation continue to turn a blind eye to all that ails us. Whether the issue is the truth about health care and why we can't get it unconditionally or education and why we are one of the less intelligent nations on earth with an apparent pride in said ignorance, or my personal favorites, the "isms" that we face. I'm not even talking about the greed and corruption that is still running rampant. We gave these douche bags OUR money and they continue to hold it hostage. Watch the stock market go up and down while companies make profit. After more than a century we elect our first black President and "liberals" procede with the daisy chainin' and circle jerks, "conservatives" AND the GOP are plotting behind closed doors to bring back slavery...yet our ideals remain the best on the block. So much so that we are teaching it to other nations around the globe, I mean, there is no more a sincere form of flattery than imitation.
Whooohoooo! Everybody wants to be like us. Except that is leading to more greed and corruption. Sorry.
Where was I?
Oh yeah!!!! I was talking about why it's not crazy for black people in general to be fearful of going to see a doctor. When I'm sure that there were times in our great nations history prior to and since the Tuskegee Experiment where, when treatment was needed perhaps even dire, that someone somewhere said "Aaaaw, don't worry about it. It'll be fine, these Negroes are indestructible." (Now look, my black people, I am NOT suggesting that we forego seeing a doctor on a regular basis. Get a check-up...well if you have health insurance.)

Seriously why are people who make claims about genocide against black people deemed nuts.
Is it because that is always the first and best line of defense? It's the easiest way to make people steer clear of the truth. Brand them heretics, or witches, or evil-doers. Were all the people who attempted to warn the rest of the world about Hitler crazy? Oh yeah that's right didn't a former POTUS's father help fund Hitler?
There are countless instances of suspected government atrocities against it's own people, many of whom were asked to leave when they arrived. And while it is true that a great many of them happened a long time ago, their effects remain. Don't you think it's fuched up that these things continue without real justice being served. Especially considering that the injustices being committed have crossed racial lines and have been hitting both black and white people...and everybody in between right in the culo...(big up JCleezy..eeeeazy weezy...sorry private joke), that is, if you keep your wallet in your back pocket. <--(nice save if I do say so myself.) So excuse me if I do, even for a minute, give some credence to the idea that AIDS was also such an incident...what? Like governments haven't in history taken extreme measures to keep the population at manageable levels. Perhaps they wanted to prove once and for all that black people can in fact swim! (Was that in poor taste?) The high tide came in and washed out an entire city in New Orleans four years ago, four years before that over two thousand people lost their lives in an atrocious attack on our psyches, I don't doubt for a minute that many of us here in NYC still haven't fully processed what we witnessed. They are few but I still have nightmares about what I saw that day, as I stood in the middle of sixth avenue at eighth street...and to this day I still don't know who was truly responsible for my nightmares during the weeks afterward. But many of you would like me to just get in the bullshit buffet line with you and pile as much on my plate as you have on yours. Well I can't do that, I'm on a no bullshit diet..I can eat anything else I want...except bullshit...that's the beauty of no shitty breath.

Okay I might as well get to the point because I can see some of you twisting around in your chairs like I'm making you uncomfortable...well it ain't me it's you.
What I'm saying is simple. Is anybody really surprised by this "news." I mean what's it going to take for people to start honestly looking at race relations throughout the history of this country until now and discussing real solutions without trying to remove ourselves from responsibility. Are we going to have to see un-armed civilians shot down in the streets by police...oh yeah.
Is it going to take seeing black men being blamed for crimes they didn't commit, then railroaded into prison...oh right we see that everyday and what do we do.
I mean the last recorded lynching in this country was in the sixties, and even beyond that there have been acts of murderous racism throughout the country, James Byrd in Texas just to name one.
Are we a nation of bigots just waiting to explode into a civil race war? NYC is a bigot's wet dream. You can hate everybody here...really, you can, just like the old Polish lady on the G train who keeps staring at the inter-racial couple across from her and muttering under breath. Another thing that amazes me is this "fear" that white folks have of black men...I know that it exists because I witness it practically everytime I walk outside my door. If we're so gottdamn scurry (didja get it?) why do you keep coming uptown for weed or further uptown for coke...or driving through Bushwick looking to buy crax...need I even mention what Bushwick looks like you guys should have any reason to be afraid...pfft.
Let me set the record straight, most of us ain't even thinkin about you, unless you're hot and wanna get down, plus, we rob and kill each other...did I mention NYPD? (Umm their motto's initials are CPR)but outside of that...mind yours, don't say anything stupid and don't get all pissed off when we get our reparations checks.

But if that last part rubbed you the wrong way...why can't you just be happy that you're being rubbed? Isn't that sort of along the lines of something you would tell all us uppity agitators who're all upset at your great country? See it's not so nice when the shoe is on the other foot, is it...? Can you even fathom what I'm saying? For those of you who can't.
This is yIh8uuu.

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I Dont Think Yous' Understand

Well howdy doody folks! That is, those of you brave enough to step into The Terror Dome. Eville, if you will. Bwaaahaahaaha.
So apparently some of you actually believe that I do in fact h8 uuu. Now while I can clearly see why you might believe that I wonder why you would? How come you can see all the "insults" as insults and not constructive criticism? A mere commentary on what is both true and based in reality as well as a lesson, for lack of a better word.
Recently I had the extreme pleasure to read a fellow bloggers words about a visit between Bill "The Cos" Cosby and Rev. Jesse in front of what I assume <--( yeah, I know..shutup wouldja please) to be thousands of people. During this panel discussion Cos reiterates some things that he has been saying for years now about our present and future status in this country as a nation of black people...well that's how I see it anyway. Though his words may appear scathing on the surface when he answers critics saying it is counterproductive to "air our dirty laundry in public" with "Your dirty laundry gets out of school at 2:30 everyday."
Yeah they do sting a little....THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO STING!
That is the whole point of trying to correct the issue. He doesn't h8uuu either, just the behavior that is readily available to be witnessed on a daily basis. Behavior that we all know is wrong.
Now Dr. Bill was specifically talking about our black youth, which, I mean...oy vey, don't get me started! I mean, I do discuss it in my book...Best Laid Plans but how many times can I keep saying that, right? (Til you get the book, how 'bout that!?)

But my friends, I have a much broader launch point. I just so happen to critique all of uuu.
Whether socially or politically I am simply pointing out what I see as counterproductive behavior, if we indeed want all that peace and harmony crap, a more perfect union if you will.
But I guess I am a much easier target because well, who the fuch am I, right? It's true but that same thing allows me to be blunt and blatantly honest. Like for example, a question I been mulling over for a minute. Is Obama ever going to show his pimp hand? Does he even have a pimp hand? I mean our last President was more than happy to lay the smack down with no regard to human emotion. Often times it was his way or the highway...which when you think about, is the same thing...hahahahaha!! Sorry.
There has to come a time or an issue that makes him say "Hey..stop dicking around and get the schit done..enough already...don't make me slap you. I'm Barack Obama bitch!"
I'm just sayin'. Dick "Dastardly" Cheney shot a dude in the face and made that dude apologize to him! Okay that's gansta and not pimpin but Ol' Dick did a lil of both...uh hello Haliburton? Plus he's still out there running his mouth about schit that makes O.J. say "Wow, he got balls!"
Barack, you need to just walk into a session of...whatever...grab a page by the arm and tell him to punch a Republican, maybe that guy from South Carolina who heckled him a few months ago, really hard in the face (Ala Tom Cruise in "Tropic Thunder"). Just to show some "What, what!?!"
I don't know maybe it's me. But c'mon you don't want gays to marry each other? Look pal, everybody has a right to be miserable, okay? What're you so upset about?
You should be happy that they aren't faking being straight, ruining our images of what a Rock Hudson is supposed to be or trying to marry your daughters!
Yeah, yeah, the Bible says its wrong....okay stop hiding behind the Bible on every issue that makes you uncomfortable. Since when is God such a douche..oh your god is a douche. Well, it's the only conclusion I can draw being the reasonably intelligent and rational human being that I am. Because even in life as we strive to find some meaning to our existence, as menial and unimportant as it is, we still find time to imagine a place for ourselves after this life is over...and you're telling me that your god is basically the douche bag doorman who won't let some people in based on some vague criteria of worthiness...well that club always sucks and G-Zus will be at the after party anyway. And one more thing, you can't have it both ways, all of you who try to shun homosexuality as an abomination against God, when anyone with an analytical mind would ask if Jesus was gay because he only ever hung out with a bunch of dudes. Especially according to every account you guys give credence to. See? Not so nice is it?
The last thing I want to spill in my attempt to defend myself against the too sensitive, is this. I am often misunderstood but I have learned to keep that to a minimum these days. I can communicate a lot with few words. I'm even starting to master The Jedi Mind if I chose to I could peacefully ignore all the daftness that still abounds but fighting against the daft will make me stronger. The Daft is widespread and continues to breed and recruit, even those of us who swore to fight against them sometimes fall victim to it's cunning. It can sneak up on any of us at anytime. The fight will be long as we see everyday from watching the fights amongst political parties who all claim to work for us when all they do is stall until the next elections.
All these hurdles are put in place to keep you from understanding yourselves better, so understanding me is the least of your worries but you'd much rather look at me with furrowed brow and the glazed look in your eye as if to say "Why are you being so mean?"
You really don't get it do you? Well, that is yIh8uuu.

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